It was a blissful week or so as my calm post-Journey to Center mind/body state prevailed and I reveled in it’s impact upon my enjoyment of life. But then reality struck.
Ah, uncenteredness. There I was innocently reading my emails and up popped one that tied my stomach in knots. My energy whooshed out and a sigh slipped my lips. Fortunately, enough centeredness remained for my email response to be appropriate, but, oh the toll on my relaxation!
Over the next few hours I grasped valiantly at straws --- breathing, vision statements, exercise, stretching. A restless night of sleep suggested I was being less than successful. Then the veil of self-judgment crept in. Why was I in this mind/body state again? After all my training….
Fortunately, I do have all that training and it’s benefit began to kick in. I was able to smile a bit more compassionately at myself and start the return to a more relaxed mind/body state. More centering, more deep breathing and, I admit, a massage, and I felt more back on track.
In retrospect, it is absolutely fascinating how easy it is for me to slip back into old dysfunctional patterns. My knee-jerk responses sure are deeply ingrained. I suspect they will always be there, just under the surface of my consciousness, ready to jump into action when the right buttons are pushed. Knowing this keeps me far more vigilant in my daily practices. They are my greatest allies in my desire to live a life filled with joy and energy, rather than anxiety and helplessness.
Hope that all of you had a better week and are keeping up on your own centering practices. They do work in time!
Judy
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